Well… now I know at least.
The news hit me like paper mache. I read the email and it just kind of bounced off me. Didn’t even ruffle my feathers. I was watching a football game and had a stew in the pressure cooker. A temporary blip on my radar.
My non-reaction slowly gave way to deeper, more serious thoughts. I re-read the email and gradually began a process of taking my next steps. Gotta find something to do this summer. Simple as that.
I know a lot of people from across the country. These people know even more people. Somebody’s gonna need help with their projects. I’ve got a lot to offer. Just gotta put the word out.
I found myself starting with Vancouver. Toronto’s next. I’ve also been touching base with folks here at home. The act of actually actively promoting myself has me feeling good… like I’m not in purgatory anymore waiting for news.
I still have my projects and I’ll still write the spec script I committed to. I’m just not gonna wait anymore for a handful of people to dictate my next steps.
Mostly that’s where my frustration lies. I’ve spent so much time sitting back waiting for movement on my projects, that I became paralyzed by my belief in them. There’s got to be a better handle.
I’m scared shitless. I’m also excited. It’s time to see how good I really am. Nothing is tying me down to a single location in this world. Maybe this latest development is a good thing… I mean, what other choice do I have?