I’m sitting in the production office, stealing time away from the day to put some words together. As I’ve said many times in this space, I get twitchy when too much time passes between articles.
So… what to say? Lots has happened since Wednesday. I took in a spoken word performance on Thursday. Found it quite moving. Words are powerful things, and when a spoken word artist wraps them with the embrace of their touch, they become something more.
Friday was spent on set, spending time watching time being spent. I shot an interview with Evan Bird and stood around a lot while sharing my camera with the camera department. Not much could be done about that arrangement, but it was still a bit frustrating. I have a hard time watching people work when I’m not doing anything.
Three movies are crewing right now. There’s a place for me on each of them. Only one of me to go around though. I don’t quite know where the best place is for me to wind up. Perhaps I’ll just leap and see where I land.
I’m learning a lot about myself these last few weeks. My ego is something that continues to get in the way of my happiness. I need to feel like I’m in charge of something, cuz then I’d be important. How fucked up is that? I look back on my life and I can see that type of thinking woven into every major decision I ever made.
Gotta get a handle on that. I also gotta get another scene written soon. It’s been on my mind quite a bit.
Well… back to it! I’m interviewing Vincent in spurts through out the day while trying hard NOT to be in anyone’s way. Funny. I was so nervous about interviewing Julia Ormond last week. Now it just feels like a routine — not that I’m belittling the experience. I guess it’s just the difference between ‘being in the moment’ and ‘worrying about the future’ presenting themselves for display.
The Mind of Jarrett 