I need to lower my expectations for how productive I can be in a day. Either that, or I need to kick myself in the ass and get moving a little faster.
I suspect the later is in order, but that would mean justifying the guilt I feel right now over my (weak) week’s output. What happens when I’m in production on two-and-a-half projects? Clearly something needs to change.
The problem stems from my hesitation to ‘begin’. I have 10 vignettes to finish, each taking me 4 – 5 hours. I find every excuse in the world to NOT begin each one. However, once I dive in, hands fall off the clock and I’m locked in. I’ll work ‘til 3am and not notice the passage of time. I simply have to commit to jumping in.
It’s the same trick I use with my writing. Used to take me forever to begin. Then I started to make deals with myself. Type a word, add another, then another, then even more until I form a sentence. Keep going until three sentences exist. At this point I’m sufficiently locked in to go for a good long while.
Alright. Starting today, I’m going to make that same deal with my other activities. But first I got to check my email, then cook lunch, and then maybe see what’s going on on facebook.